life is a waiting game

If there’s any lesson that I learn for 25 years of my living time, that would be “LIFE IS A WAITING GAME”. You know, the game where you standing still in a corner competing against your friend on who have the most patience on holding the desire up on something. Or in this case u are competing against yourself for that matter. You’re waiting on something n you just so caught up in the game that paralyzed your whole life. As if you left the place, that corner, you would end up as a looser. But in fact, by not leaving at all, you are the looser, because u missed out so many opportunities that spans rite there in front of you. You were so blinded out by the game n you wouldn’t see the other way. I’m still playing that game now. I’m still trying so hard to leave that game. Searching the other way, hopping for the best to come over n wishing that if there’s any luck, I will eventually get what I want. N then I realize, damned, I am still a 5 years old girl who played in the corner. And as the way I see it I need to grow up. N grow up means moving on and start to believe in myself. Which I’m still trying to figure out how….