crash n burn...

i'm not even angry now. i'm just numb. i don't know what i feel r how am i supposed to feel. a perfect numbness. i'm not grown up woman yet. i certainly realize that. but i do know how it feels to be hurt, to get hurt n sorry if i can't shut my mouth up. but i've just realized it that i've been carrying this baggage for a very long time. funny that i pushed it aside for such a long period of time.  n i guess one of my mistake is that i never told this to anyone. n now, i said it out loud. i'm sorry if it hurts certain person r make someone uncomfortable. but that just the honest, blunt truth that i can give you. if you can't handle it, then maybe you don't have to n no need to try. i'm done asking people to understand me, since i don't even understand them either. maybe this is why the closest relationship that i could have is with my laptop n my tv! gehehehe... so yeah, so be it. i have no expectation r whatsoever rite now. let me heal my wound n let me continue my life.