re-evaluate...

i've been living for 25 years now. and so far, i haven't accomplished anything on my bucket list. i feel like i'm wasting my time because of some decision that i made in the past. i know it's just useless crying over a spilt milk. so i need to re-evaluate my life... my decision that i've made. my choices that i took and all my plan that i've made. it's time to sort out all the stuffs, the waste and the erky perky things in my life. i have to make some sort of priority to set things up right. and i hope i can make my life better n move forward from it. somehow, though, i feel so damned afraid to face the truth that maybe i make loads of mistakes along the way. that i have failed to recognize some opportunities that passed my way. that i'm not as perfect as i used to think who i am. but the, who's perfect? perfection is so limited and so subjective. what is perfect anyway? what is perfect for me? get a master degree from prominent university abroad? get a better job than i have rite now? or simply just feel happy again. Gosh, i forget the last time i feel genuinely happy! Just Happy without any certain reason. Just simply happy. i miss that. what happened to me? maybe i need to be thankful for what i've got n what i have rite now. but i do feel thankful. i'm blessed with loving family, loads of best friends, a good paycheck (though not really a good job). but still i feel something is not right with me. or is it just my head? my nerve? my un-realistic mind?

first timer....

ahoiiii....
oh well, yeah i know, i'm way toooo late to start a blog rite now...
the hype is no longer that high but what can i say, i'm a late beginner, if there's any such term to begin with...
anyway, my friends keep telling me to start my own blog n start to write something about anything that happends inside my head. but believe me there's not much happening inside my head rite now... i'm not james cameron... so yeah, in a way to polish my writing skill that's starting to fall apart alas i begin this blog!
so, on my mark get set go!